So yeah, I have IBS... I knew I had it because I had mild attacks in the past until this week when it kicked off majorly to the point that I had to stumble into the doctors surgery without any appointment on my way to pick up little madam from nursery. I saw the surgery and thought f*** it, I need to try. I was in absolute agony :-( I was in tears with the pain and bless the receptionist, they were all about to shut for lunch but she could see how bad I was so got the doctor to see me straight away.
He asked me to lay out straight and prodded my tummy about which made it worse and it was all towards the right-hand side. He was a little worried that it was my appendix. He said I needed to go home, sort childcare, rest and see how I was by 5pm. If it was still bad I should call in at the surgery as I would then be on my way to hospital.
So I picked up little madam 5 minutes early got home as fast as I could (ouch up the hill) and rang the other half as soon as I got through the door saying I needed him home. Within 5 minutes he was on the bus and on his way home. I somehow managed to carry little madam up the stairs and put her in the travel cot in our bedroom, she fell asleep instantly as she was knackered from nursery. I crawled into bed still in agony to wait for the other half to come home and take over from all responsibility. Socks and Mitchel jumped on the bed for cuddles :-)
When the other half got home he settled me in bed properly so I could sleep and put in the baby monitors so he could listen out for little madam. I slept through everything after that.
The other half woke me up at 4.50pm and asked how I felt and do I need to go to the dr again. The pain was still there but it wasnt as excruciating as before. I literally felt like I had been kicked by a horse. As it was so close to 5pm I thought the surgery might be close to closing.
The dr I had seen earlier in the day rang me and asked how I was. He asked if it would be possible for me to come down just so he could check me over again.
The idea of me walking to the surgery was to much so the other half rang me a taxi and agreed to stay at home with little madam just in case I was to go straight into hospital. Anyway got to the surgery and was checked over but it turned out that the pain was shifting about my tummy and at that point the Dr said he was pretty sure it is IBS to the extreme.
All I can do is rest, eat little and often and more rest as well as take my new meds. This all kicked off from midnight on Mon night and Tuesday. It's now Thursday and i'm still suffering :-( I feel really swollen and weak. Just got to ride it out and hope it all ends soon.

In other news... I had a very nice Valentines day on Monday :-) Little madam got a card from HT hehe it says "for you on valentines day from your cheeky monkey" :-)
The kids mum is being induced next Wednesday so as far as we know we now have the kids all of next week for half term, starting from tomorrow evening. It is soooo annoying that I don't get paid until next Friday!!
The other news is that it will be Socks' 2nd birthday on Monday!!! my baby is growing up so fast! The fact that Socks is going to be two only reminds me that little madam will be as well this year! arrrggggghhhh!

Count down until complete darkness...

My complete and utter idiot of a fiance accidently lost our electric key after only just topping it up by £10. This would be ok if it weren't for the fact we are about to be cut off because we only have £2 emergency left :-( No offices or call outs are available until Monday morning - which is just great because I have workmen turning up at 9am that same morning to sort out the hallway. I have a freezer full of food as well which is heartbreaking because I have a lot of expensive meat in there :-(
The other half is out re-tracing his steps, so far no luck. We are now waiting on the hope that he is going to find the same bus he was on earlier...

I'm just soooo angry because I specifically told the other half to keep the key in the zipped up part of his wallet because I KNEW he would lose it :-( I checked and double checked he was keeping it there :-( The other annoying thing is that we have recently been looking at paying quarterly instead of being on a metre.

Very close to crying right now :-(

Yes you're reading it right! I may still be very heavy but at least it's starting to come off! wahoo!

Having such a boring day today :-( no money to do anything and the weather is bad so can't even tackle the garden grrr i'm winding the other half up by huffing and puffing all day long!

My Nanny is home from her visit to NZ :-) so glad she is home safe and sound will have to arrange a visit soon.

OMG sooooooo bored. Even wishing the kid's mum has her baby today just so I can take an interest in SOMETHING!!! Ebay still has another 3 days to go... Money won't be making an appearance until Tuesday and it's technically already been spent coz I owe ppl pennies :-( grrr BORED!!!!!

Little madam will be finishing her nap soon so i'm sure she will find a way to keep me occupied, ooo maybe we could make some valentines cards for her boyfriends!!! lol
Not sure me and the other half are doing anything on Monday although I have requested a pretty balloon lol

CONGRATULATIONS to Miss F who had a baby girl yesterday lunch time :D can't wait to meet her :-) I still can't get over her giving birth on Little madam's BF's 1st Birthday!! Happy Birthday for yesterday Master C :D I was so upset that she couldn't make his birthday party on Sunday - she was ill since Thursday morning when she woke up being sick :-( She is all better now!

We saw Lou and her better half on Thursday afternoon/Fri. Unfortunately our meal at Toby was cut short when Little madam started throwing up again all over her highchair. Poor baby. We also got to see Miss E on Saturday which was fun! Me and Miss E went out to bingo on Sat evening last minute. Unfortunately neither of us won although I was waiting on the damn number 7 for AGES!!! grrrr.....

Little madam was well enough yesterday for me and the other half to chance taking her with us to do a tesco shop - a family event lol She sat in the trolley and said 'mmmmmm' at everything hahaha! won't be long until she reaches out and grabs stuff without me seeing!

At the moment little madam is sat emptying her nursery bag, she's currently sorting through the nappy sacks haha! she's treating them as if they are pom poms :-)

Soooooo tired :-( I over stressed today just because everything seemed to be wrong! The other half left the back door unlocked AGAIN, the rabbits were trapped in their bed compartment and had chewed half the door in a bid to try and escape, Mitchel (i'm assuming it's Mitchel) decided to poo on the kitchen floor and then drag laundry out the basket to hide it (major GRRRR) and loads more, you get my drift!

So yeah i'm just guna take this moment to say. F*** it! I'm chilling out with the creme eggss tonight, and as if on cue, the other half has literally walked in through the front door and handed me 12 creme eggs HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Just realised I havent posted on here in a while. Happy Birthday to my good friend Bruce back on the 29th, also to another friend who I shall name 'nameste' - she knows what I mean!

How have we all been? I have had ups and downs.
I shall start with the downs and get them over with. I have been to the doctor about the amount of sugar I demolish. It turns out I may have some sort of eating disorder steming back to my childhood. He asked me one question "If there is one thing you could change about your life what would it be?" - my answer was "my family" and then I just burst into tears like a right twit! lol anyway, the doctor seems pretty satisfied that I'm not some manic depressant or living in the past. He said he can see i'm trying to just get on with my life but sometimes your brain can keep re-living everything... Going to give councelling a try but I can just see the whole thing being a huge sob fest haha!

Back to the ups... little madam madam had her first WHOLE day at nursery today and she did very well :D We now have a hand-print painting on the fridge hehe so cute!

Lou is down for the day/night tomorrow :-) wonder how she is getting on at mum and dad's tonight? hahaha