OMGGGGGGG, I just felt the need to write that. I feel like that a lot lately. Drained and tense.

There is so much going on and I think my mind and body is now struggling to cope with the reality of our situation. We are so poor it's unreal. Obviously I understand that there are people out there with literally nothing and believe me, I sit here alot and tell myself to look at my situation throught their eyes. Perhaps I am being selfish. It still gets me down though :( Me and the other half still aren't 100% right which leaves me feeling unstable and insecure. I just want everything to be ok, and to know that everything will actually be ok because it's alright to say it out loud it's just the believing it that I think I am struggling with.
We have our niece staying here every night to sleep as she has nowhere else to stay until her mum moves out of the place she is staying (long story). So at the moment I am having to deal with the fact that she is obviously struggling with being passed from pillar to post for the foreseeable future. She is only 4 and to be honest, once she has got over the initial clingyness to the other half's mum each evening she settles really well at night and goes straight to sleep dispite Little Madam running riot up until aruond 10pm most nights!
Ebay is going 'ok'. I absolutely LOVE my work but I need to increase my sales by at least 70% in order to earn enough to help with bills. I am going to visit my nan this weekend to sort out my self-assessment.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and breathe...
I don't even know what else to say right now :( x x