Long time no see!!!!

Wow!! I can not believe the last post was in July last year?!?!

Time to play catch up!

The other half is away at university in Camborne, he leaves on a Sunday evening and returns on a Thursday evening. It's an emotional struggle, especially for Little Madam. It's just one of those things that we are learning to live with. We know the it will all pay off in the end. We are really proud of him.

So Little Madam is 4 years old now! She starts Primary School in September!!!! We find out which school she goes to next week.

My sister got married last month. It was nice to see everyone altogether but fear that it won't be a regular occurance :-(

Speaking of getting married. Myself and the other half have finally set a date for our wedding!!! We are getting married on Saturday 16th August this year! We are very excited :-) We were a little worried about the timing of announcing etc because of my sisters wedding.... but it's the right time for us. We have the money, and I'm now term time at work which means I have all the holidays to do all the preparations and actually have the wedding!
The church and hotel are booked! The bridesmaids and groomsmen are chosen! Now to crack on with the bulk of the planning and organising!

My other news..... I have FINALLY finished my NVQ - I am awaiting my Maths result as part of my functional skills tests. I remain optimistic as I felt the exam went quite well, so fingers crossed.....!!!

I've just realised, I have yet more news!! I am now mummy to three GORGEOUS kittens! Bobby (Robert), Benjamin and Mittens. They are soooooooo cute!! They match Socks and Mitchel, all black! I promise this is it now kitty wise haha I have turned into the mad cat lady! I love them all. Right now as I type this at midnight, I have a kitty on my chest, two on the chair pouffe and two on the other side of the sofa. They show unconditional love and are fantastic company while the other half is away. They are hilarious and I really appreciate how special and sweet they really are :-) CUTIES!!!!

I am currently enjoying the fact I don't have to be up at the crack of dawn tomorrow - I loveeeeeee the holidays, going term time was one of the BEST decisions I ever made!!! lol

Loving life :D Having gone through the above, it makes you realise who is worth my time and effort. I will certainly be more careful in future about who I lend my time to...

Well, the other half is starting Uni in Sept :-) I will finally get a bit of peace in my weeks while he commutes between Plymouth and Camborne!
That's not all, he turns 30 this year :-) I have organised a 'gathering/party' which we will be doing at the end of Aug :D He has always told me how much he wants to do a bungee jump, well I couldn't organise that so I have organised a sky dive! He better do it!! :P xx

My sister is getting married in March, wedding plans are on-going. My bridesmaid dress has been bought and is stashed at her house :D I'm sure the following months are going to fly by! At the beginning stage of helping her best friend organise her hen do :D

Little Madam is turning into a tall madam :-) This year is flying by, she will soon be 4! One more year in pre-school and then school in Sept 2014 :O
Her speech has improved so much, she's a miniature adult! Her legs are still very wobbly, in fact we are currently waiting for her referral to get her legs/knees/ankles checked out. She seems to turn her feet in when she walks, she trips over so often :-(

Little Miss K turns 10 on the 23rd Aug - we have them at the moment for the beginning part of the holiday, so we are having a 'party' day on the 10th to celebrate her 10th :-) At the moment she and her sister little miss J are away on their first Brownie Pack Holiday :-) I can't describe how strange it feels knowing they are 'away' and completely our responsibility if you know what I mean? Usually when they are 'away' they are in Bude and we hold their mum responsible for their actions. They come back tomorrow :-)

Little Miss J will be in the brownies by herself come Sept when her sister goes up to Guides. Her aim this summer is to learn to tell the time!!!!!

Socks and Mitchel are still ADORABLE!!!!!!!!! I love them sooooooooo much!

I'm baaaaaackkkkkk!

Hello All,

I've been off the blog for quite a while, now it's time to return :-)

In the last few months i've been really busy doing the following...

*The other half has quit his job and has a place in Camborne College starting this September, in the meantime he has more free time to relax and see the kids :-)

*The other half killed our car! We have had it scraped. We think it was something to do with the clutch but not entirely sure, anyway there was no way I was going to spend another penny on that car.

*I have recently been in hospital having key hole surgery. I'm all good now. My lovely sister Lou came down from Surrey to look after me :-) We had quite a bit of fun in Tesco's with the wheelchair lol

 

I also went to the zoo with the other half and little madam and had to use a mobility scooter lol Little Madam found this hilarious and kept 'pushing' me!

 

*My good friend Miss E (Who I shall now refer to Mrs C!) got married in April and I was a bridesmaid :-) Little madam was a flower girl. It was a lovely day despite the rain!

 

 

*We celebrated my best friends 25th birthday in January. We had a professional photo session followed by a tour of Torquay in a Pink Party Fire Engine!

 

*We had a lovely christmas with the kids also celebrating little miss J's 8th birthday :-)







 

Other things include New Year party at mine (no Little Miss K and J this year for the first time in years), Hen Party for Mrs C and staff christmas party :-)

 



Had a great time with my family :-)

Had such a great time in Cheltenham/Gloucester with my family :-)

I am however SOOOOOOO annoyed at my mother-in-law for putting her bloody foot in it and preventing my other half from going :-( He was so gutted to realise he wouldn't be able to go.

Happy Birthday to my other half who is 29 TODAY!!!! That's right people - only one more year left in his twenties and I will be lumbered with a thirty year old!!! :P

Back to my holiday....

I decided to visit my grandparents slightly earlier than planned last Thursday. Little Madam and I drove into town with the other half who dropped us off at the train station. We boarded the train and settled down for the direct trip to Cheltenham Spa.
Little Madam was very well behaved and helped me track down the bus outside the station! We travelled into town and got our connecting bus staight away - smooth! lol

My Nan thought she was picking me up from the station at 2pm but I thought I would suprise her and turn up at her work at 1pm :-) She was very suprised! She also loved showing her colleagues her great-grand daughter :-) We left her to finish her last hour of her shift and went to eat our lunch on the bench opposite. Once we had finished eating we read Peppa Pig. Lots of passers by commented on how adorable Little Madam is :D

Once Nan had finished she came to meet us and drove us back to the house. We pottered around for a bit and then took little madam to the park which she LOVED! We completely wore her out. Nan was determined she say 'OVER the bridge' and not 'up' lol

After the park we went to see my GREAT grandad (Little Madam's great-great grandad!) He was very pleased to see us! Little Madam loved seeing the chickens in his next door neighbours garden. She also got to ride on a trike which at one point she fell off smacking her head on the concrete - oops. She managed to take it in her stride once the shock had worn off and carried on playing. We now seem to have adopted a very scary looking doll!!!

We went back to my Nan's house and briefly saw my Grandad when he got home from work. He got to see little madam making a mess eating her tea. I decided to feed her there as I thought she would fall asleep on my way to 'Uncle Festers and Westie'.

Uncle Fester turned up at 6pm to pick us up :-) I was really happy that Little Madam wasn't shy around anyone :-) She DID fall asleep on the way back to Gloucester! I knew she would lol Westie woke her up to say 'hello' :-)

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Anywayyyyy I had no idea this would all take so long to write - it's still the other half's birthday so better get going and will continue to relate my holiday via blog very soon! To be continued....

In the mean time wish me luck in my new job tomorrow - I will be up bright and early :O

Night for now x x

Out with the old, in with the new...

To my dear friend...

This post is directly for you and I apologise for maybe looking like I am taking the cowards route with all of this by posting on this 'infamous' blog. I am in fact trying to spare an awkward conversation/arguement. I just want to say my piece so you can understand 'why' and perhaps even do something about it, i'm not sure...

I realise I have had more than my fair share of dilema's and problems over the last year or so. You have been there for me like a true friend and I really do THANK YOU :-) It's only in situations like that you realise who your true friends are and I know hand on heart that you are one of them. I feel priviliged to have you in my life.

Lately I have come into some information leading me to doubt how truthful some who are close to you in particular are actually being. Your good nature lending a hand and being the best friend you can possibly be has perhaps created personal conflict with you and a loved one. They have had to go along with certain things mainly to keep you happy but are very begrudging and are becoming more and more two-faced...

I was really upset to hear their personal views about me, especially as they seem very nice/genuine to my face but behind closed doors is the complete opposite... I'm done with negative people in my life. You of all people know how many negative-minded people I have flitting in and out of my life.

I have thought long and hard about the next thing I am about to say... If that is the way they truly think of me then perhaps it's time to make a clean break. I am sick of people who don't even really 'know' me thinking the worst. Thinking they can judge a book by it's cover and even try to make you feel like I am awful...

I have really tried hard to be a friend to them, make them feel 'part of the family'. Yes I know I have had to beg and borrow, but I would never 'steal' from you (I know I have not been accused of stealing - but I can sense the hostility they radiate towards me as if I am fleecing you and taking the p**s).

Please know that if you found yourself in similar situations I would be there 100% for you. If my other half ever thought badly and said even half the stuff I am talking about - I would show him the door fast. You are my best friend and anyone who speaks badly of you is no friend of mine...

It is for these reasons I can not bare to have anything to do with this 'said person' and pray you can understand why. They obviously have too many issues with me, and frankly they are not worth fighting for in my eyes. It will be no loss for me but a dilema for you and I can appreciate that. I'm not asking you to choose, I would never ask you outright to do that. Just please accept my decision to move on and feel free to talk through this with me.

I love you and miss you always x x x

Well that made interesting reading...

Anyway....

The other half and I are on and off still with our 'views'/general life! Basically the good thing now is we are being frank and honest. There is a lot of things for both of us to work on and face up to. I know that now...

We won the court case, it has all been adjourned. Case dismissed.

I now owe a lot of people money. The first people I intend on paying back is the friends/family who lent me money. It's the worst feeling in the world to owe someone you love money. It's a constant guilt trip spending money on 'something nice' when they are probably thinking 'well hang on a minute... you could be paying me back if you can afford to do that!' Yes, will definately be paying them back first. My mind is at breaking point even just thinking about it...

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We have all three girls here now for the summer holidays. Little Madam still has this week in nursery (today and tomorrow morning) and then she will have the next two weeks off to enjoy with her family.

Like it or lump it?

Everyday seems to end in tears. Not just tears from my thoughts but actual pushed tears provoked from the other half constantly battling with everything I say/do. Nothing is right and everything is wrong. That's how I feel right now and IT'S GOT TO STOP :-(

Everyday I have the same arguments based on the other halfs over-reaction to NOTHING. What the hell is his problem coz I sure as hell don't know any more. He is driving me insane and quite frankly I don't know if he is worth it any more.

I was ready to marry him YEARS ago and he says he was too but he is just waaaaay off ready.

I have begged him to take a good long look at himself and his selfish attitude. He makes promises he just doesn't intend on keeping. EVERYTHING revolves around him and his needs.

FUCKING SORT YOURSELF OUT YOU SELFISH SELFISH BASTARD...