Out with the old, in with the new...

To my dear friend...

This post is directly for you and I apologise for maybe looking like I am taking the cowards route with all of this by posting on this 'infamous' blog. I am in fact trying to spare an awkward conversation/arguement. I just want to say my piece so you can understand 'why' and perhaps even do something about it, i'm not sure...

I realise I have had more than my fair share of dilema's and problems over the last year or so. You have been there for me like a true friend and I really do THANK YOU :-) It's only in situations like that you realise who your true friends are and I know hand on heart that you are one of them. I feel priviliged to have you in my life.

Lately I have come into some information leading me to doubt how truthful some who are close to you in particular are actually being. Your good nature lending a hand and being the best friend you can possibly be has perhaps created personal conflict with you and a loved one. They have had to go along with certain things mainly to keep you happy but are very begrudging and are becoming more and more two-faced...

I was really upset to hear their personal views about me, especially as they seem very nice/genuine to my face but behind closed doors is the complete opposite... I'm done with negative people in my life. You of all people know how many negative-minded people I have flitting in and out of my life.

I have thought long and hard about the next thing I am about to say... If that is the way they truly think of me then perhaps it's time to make a clean break. I am sick of people who don't even really 'know' me thinking the worst. Thinking they can judge a book by it's cover and even try to make you feel like I am awful...

I have really tried hard to be a friend to them, make them feel 'part of the family'. Yes I know I have had to beg and borrow, but I would never 'steal' from you (I know I have not been accused of stealing - but I can sense the hostility they radiate towards me as if I am fleecing you and taking the p**s).

Please know that if you found yourself in similar situations I would be there 100% for you. If my other half ever thought badly and said even half the stuff I am talking about - I would show him the door fast. You are my best friend and anyone who speaks badly of you is no friend of mine...

It is for these reasons I can not bare to have anything to do with this 'said person' and pray you can understand why. They obviously have too many issues with me, and frankly they are not worth fighting for in my eyes. It will be no loss for me but a dilema for you and I can appreciate that. I'm not asking you to choose, I would never ask you outright to do that. Just please accept my decision to move on and feel free to talk through this with me.

I love you and miss you always x x x